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Post by the_admin on Jun 12, 2004 12:58:05 GMT -5
WOOO GO EMMA! Keep it goinnnnnn
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 13, 2004 7:30:52 GMT -5
Awwww this is so cute!!! ;D
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 14, 2004 10:35:49 GMT -5
The day before Matt left for his holiday eventually came. In a way, it was a day I was dreading. I knew it was only for two weeks, but we'd become so close that it felt like it was going to be longer. He came to school as usual but was going to miss the next week and was going to be away for the whole of the half term. He turned up to walk me to school and we walked, almost silently, hand in hand. Most of my injuries from the fight had gone by now but the emotional ones were still there. I wasn't really upset, or traumatised, just angry. Whenever I saw her face I just wanted to scream but I knew I had to keep cool, not for her sake. For my sake and for the baby's sake. Matt had recently confessed to how much he actually wanted to be a part of his childs life and I wasn't about to stop him. I was pleased for him. He'd never been this enthusiastic about anything before. I just wanted him to be happy. "I have to give Jennifer her first lot of money today. Y'know, she has to buy a cot and a pram and stuff." he said randomly. I looked up at him and smiled. "How much are you giving her?" I asked, leaning in to his arm. He let go of my hand and wrapped it around my waist, making me feel secure. He knew I still hadn't really got over what had happened to me but had been really caring and understanding about it. "Only a hundred quid," he replied, kissing the top of my head. I stopped. "A hundred quid! Matt, that's like, all the money you have," I told him, shocked. "I know sweetheart but this is my first child and it's really important to me." I nodded and fell into his chest again as we walked along. When we reached school, Matt kissed me softly on the lips and let me go to my lessons. I didn't see him all day, unfortunately. I did see him after college, he insisted on walking home with me. "Matt, you have to go and get your stuff ready for tomorrow," I told him as we reached my front door. "I know, but coming in yours for a little while isn't gonna cause any problems." he grinned cheekily, pushing me towards the front door. I giggled and gave in, walking down the path, Matt's arms wrapped around me from behind. As I reached the key out to put it in the keyhole, Matt caught my hand and did it for me. I smiled and turned to face him. He smiled down at me and kissed me lightly. He lifted me over the doorstep and shut the door behind us, placing the keys on the sideboard. He led me into the lounge and sat me down on his lap. "I'm going to miss you so much when I'm away," he whispered. I smiled to myself. "I know, you keep telling me that," "What so aren't you going to miss me?" he asked, trying to sound hurt. "Of course I am. Why would I not miss you?" "I'm going to try and ring you everynight." I smiled. "How are you going to do that?" "I'll find a way" he smirked. He picked the TV control up and flicked the on button. MTV sprung onto the screen. Matt flicked through the various music channels and stopped on VH1. "What have you put this channel on for, it's crap," I told him, trying to snatch the remote from his hands. "No, no, no, This song," he said, liffting the remote above his head and turning the volume up. "This is how I feel about you," he whispered, as I settled back against his stomach to listen. It was 'Angels' by Robbie Williams. "And through it all, she offers me protection, a lot of love and affection, whether I'm right or wrong, and down the water fall, wherever it may take me, I know that life won't break me, when I come to call, she won't forsake me, I'm loving Angels instead" he sang softly in my ear. He had a great singing voice, shame he never put it to use more often. I turned slightly and faced him. "Thank you, that was so sweet," I smiled. "Yeah, except for the fact that I sounded like a strangled cat," "No, it didn't. It sounded great. You have a great singing voice," I insisted. "No I don't it sounds crap," "Matt, shut up. It was excellent," "Yeah but having a good singing voice is really poncey for a boy," "So I take it Kurt Cobain was poncey then," "No, but......." "And Tom Delonge," Matt thought and smiled. "Okay, you win," he sighed. I grinned at him and pulled him closer to me. "What's my prize then?" "A great big kiss," "Is that all?!" I laughed. "Fine, if you don't appreciate my kisses, I'll take them elsewhere," he whined. "Oh yeah, like where?" I challenged him. He shrugged. "I've always found James quite cute, I'll try them out on him, see if he appreciates them," he told me, his face straight. "You are joking," Matt shook his head. "In fact, I'm going to ring him now and tell him," he said, picking up the cordless phone. I watched at him, biting on my bottom lip, trying not to laugh. I watched as he started tapping in James' number, slowly down as he reached the final digits. His finger hovered over the call button and he looked up at me. "You know, feel free to stop me and declare your undying love for me any moment now, I won't mind." I eventually burst out laughing, took the phone from his hands and placed it back on the hook. He grinned at me and pulled me on top of him. This time, I was facing him. "Of course I love you," I told him, kissing his nose. He screwed his face up and smiled at me. "What time is your mum coming back?" he asked, looking at his watch. I shrugged. "Why?" "I expect she'll send me home when se gets here. She'll probably be on orders from my mum," "Tonight's mum's busy night. She doesn't get in until about 10 or 11 most weeks. She has work, then a meeting, then she goes to some adult education class, then she goes late night shopping because its empty and Tesco is open for 24 hours then she comes home. It's her way of getting everything out of the way," Matt nodded. "So it looks like you're stuck with me for a little while yet." he grinned, pulling me in for another kiss. I smiled and kissed him back. He worked his way down the side of my cheek and then kissed my neck softly and my collabone. I ran my hands through his hair and managed to lean forward and kiss his neck softly. Slowly, his hands, reached up and we pulled apart. His thumb softly stroked my cheek and he looked in to my eyes. "I... I want to....to.... y'know..... go further," I eventually managed to stutter. "What all the way further or just a little bit further," he asked, being serious for once in his life. "All the way further." He pushed me up, taking my hand as he did so. "You go upstairs, and I'll be up in a minute, yeah?" I nodded and walked nervously upstairs to my bedroom. I didn't know why I was nervous, this was definatley what I wanted.
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 14, 2004 11:31:59 GMT -5
how do you want this fic to end?
A) She gets pregnant with Matt's baby B) One of them cheats on the other and it ends with them getting back together C) He proposes D) She proposes ('cos that's possible and a bit different) E) The same 5 years later or whatever thing that I normally end up doing F) Something else.... (you have to tell me what the something else is)
just write the letter that you want...... I can't decide on how to end this so I need your help again...... I've decided to start to give my adoring fans some say on what goes on in my fics!!!!!
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 14, 2004 12:28:32 GMT -5
Oh Oh Oh!! I have an idea but if I post it on here and you decide to use it then everyone will know!! Do you want me to PM you it?? ;D I will anyway!!
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Post by the_admin on Jun 14, 2004 13:33:51 GMT -5
I'll go for Debbie's idea, whatever it may be
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 15, 2004 9:05:30 GMT -5
Thanks hun!! It turns out that I am physcic (sp?) and she was gonna do the same kinda idea!! ;D
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Post by the_admin on Jun 15, 2004 10:39:09 GMT -5
COOL! HEHE!
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 15, 2004 10:55:17 GMT -5
As I woke up the next morning, the sun streamed in through my thin curtains. I groaned as I realised that the random beeping in the dream I was having was actually my alarm waking me up for college. I switched it off and rolled over to face Matt. He continued sleeping peacefully, a contented look on his face. "Matt," I whispered, tracing my finger up his arm. No response. "Matt, you have to go" I told him, kissing his nose. He quietly yawned and his eyes flickered open. "Why?" he whispered. "Do you not like me now or something?" he asked, frowning. I smiled. "I love you even more now than I ever have done before" I told him, sitting up and pulling the sheets up around me, "But if you don't go now you're going to end up missing your flight." He smiled, placed two fingers at the base of my bare back and let them tiptoe up my spine. "So in theory, Our first night together is actually our last night together," he smiled. "Only for two weeks," I replied, picking his boxers up off of the floor and throwing the at him. He caught them and slipped them on, then stood up. As he did so, something caught my eye. "Matt, we did shut the door last night, didn't we," I asked. He pulled his jeans up and turned around whilst zipping up the flies. "Of course we did, Why?" he asked, buckling up his belt and picking his T-shirt up. I signalled to the door and he looked over. Now it was no longer shut, it was open. Only slightly, but nonetheless, evidently open. "Who do you think did that?" he asked, sitting back on the bed, pulling his t-shirt over his head and smoothing it out. "Well can can only be my mum, that means she saw us in bed together," I panicked. Matt walked over, and shut the door, then picked my dressing gown off the hook and threw it at me. "Well she didn't get home until half eleven so she didn't catch us actually doing anything," "How do you know?" I asked, slipping into my dressing gown and sliding out of bed. "I was still awake, you'd already fallen asleep. Anyway, its not as if we did anything strange. Sex is completely natural," he grinned, sitting at my dressing table, fiddling with his hair. "Yeah, but it's just a bit cringey when your mum walks in, that's all." "I know, but it could have been worse, thats all I'm saying" he smiled. He stood up again and pulled me into a big kiss. "I'm really going to miss you," I whispered, my eyes welling up for some reason. "Hey, don't cry," he whispered back, wiping the tears away with his thumbs, "Like you said, it's only two weeks," I nodded, lost for words for a moment. Matt looked back over at the clock and smiled. "I have to go now, but I'll ring you every night if I can and I'll send you a postcard and everything," "You better," I told him, following him out of my room and down the stairs. He picked his bag up from the floor in the hallway and kissed me again as he stood up. "Keep an eye on JB for me" I laughed. "And Charlie for that matter, I promise you, they can't cope without me around." He opened the front door and with another kiss, stepped outside. "I love you," he whispered. "I love you too," I replied, wiping a stray tear from my cheek. "See you in two weeks," he said, walking down the garden path. "I'm gonna miss you," I called after him. "I'm gonna miss you too," he called back. I smiled to myself and watched from the doorway as he walked away.
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 15, 2004 12:25:58 GMT -5
Awwwwww!! So lurvly!! < I really am begining to fall in love with that word!! Lurvly, lurvly, lurvly!! lol! ;D
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 18, 2004 11:11:37 GMT -5
Woo, I got banned but now I'm back which means there is lots of new fic!!!!
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 18, 2004 11:12:40 GMT -5
I walked to school on my own for the first time in about 2 months that morning. It felt weird not having Matt beside me, laughing and joking. I wrapped my arms around myself and made my way through the park. I still felt nervous about walking through the park on my own, Matt usually walked through with me now and I felt uneasy with out him protecting me. "EMMA!" someone shouted loudly behind me. I turned to see James running towards me. I smiled and stopped to wait for him. "Hey," I said as he reached me. He smiled and tried to catch his breath. "You're so unfit, you only ran a couple of metres." I laughed. He nodded and straightened up. "I got those pictures developed from the other weekend," he told me, pulling a photo case out of his bag. The other weekend, me, Matt, James and Charlie had gone down to the beach for the day. It had been a great laugh and we stayed out until well after it turned dark. "Let's see them," I said, holding my hand out. He fiddled through them and picked out a couple. "There are some really sweet ones of you and Matt. If you like them, I'll get you some copies," he told me handing them over. I looked at the top one. Matt had both his arms around me tightly, pulling me towards him and he was kissing my cheek. "That's a really nice one," I told him. He peered over at it and nodded. "This one's better," he told me as he flicked through some of the others and showed me one. This time me and Matt were fast asleep, cuddled up on the sand. "And this one," he put another one to the front. It showed Charlie asleep, sucking his thumb. "Oh My God!!!! These are really good photos James, can you get me a set?" I asked, handed them back to him. "'Course I can." he smiled. We walked side by side silently for a while. "So I take it you're missing Matt already." I nodded. "He stayed at mine last night so now I miss him even more," "Why?" he asked, confused. "Well, you know. Last night we just felt more together, it brought us closer and now he's not here. I just really miss him," "I'm sure you do," he smiled. As we walked out the other end of the footpath, we saw Jennifer standing on the other side of the road with her friends, she was showing something off. "God, she gets to me so much," James scowled. I giggled. "Just ignore her, she's really not worth it." As we walked past, I overheard some of her conversation. "The bag was £40 and the sunglasses were £30 and then I bought this top for £30 pounds as well," she told her friends in a fake high pitched voice. I rolled my eyes and carried on with James. "I can't believe her dad would give her all that money. I mean she was just talking about spending a hundred quid on three things." James whispered. I nodded and then something struck me. "Did you just say a hundred quid?" I asked, stopping. He nodded and stopped as well. "That's what all of that added up to. Why?" I took a deep breath and shook my head. "She didn't get that money off of her dad," I told him. "She got it off of Matt," "Matt? Why would Matt give her money?" he asked. "He gave her a hundred quid to buy stuff for the baby," "But why would she spend money for the baby on herself?" James asked. I turned to look at her quickly and then turned to look at James again. "Don't you think it's weird that she hasn't put any weight on yet?" James looked over my shoulder at her and shrugged. "I don't really know. What are you trying to say?" he asked. "I don't think she's pregnant. I think she's faking it," "Faking it? Why would she fake something like that?" "Well think about it, she only told him the day he split up with her. Maybe she did it because she thought he'd stay with him. Now she knows he isn't going to, she's just playing along for the money." James stood still taking it in. "Don't you think that's a bit screwed?" he said eventually. "Yeah, it is. Totally screwed. That's why I think I have to find out if she's telling the truth." James sighed. "I dunno, she'll probably end up finding you out and then she'll use it against you." "But it's gonna tear Matt apart when he finds out," "Exactly which is why you should leave it." "Don't you think it's better him finding out now rather than later." James thought. "Okay, you win, but I still don't think you should turn all detective about it, just confront her later on, when you get a chance." I nodded. "I will James, don't you worry." I grinned.
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 18, 2004 11:13:14 GMT -5
Later on that week, I got my first phonecall from Matt. He sounded really happy to be talking to me and hearing his voice made me miss him even more. "I didn't think you were ever going to ring!" I told him as I sat in my bedroom, looking through the set of photos James had had done for me. "I know, I'm bribing the childrens rep to let me use the staff phone for free." "Oh really, and how are you doing that exactly?" I asked, uncertain of what his reply would be. "Well, some of the kids have an infatuation with me, they think I'm cool so they follow me around everywhere. Annoying little monsters. The kiddies rep noticed and begged me to do some stuff with the kids to help her out so I said I would as long as she could get me a free phone call to you," "Awww, so you're good with kids then are you?" I giggled. "Yep, It's all practise for when my one comes along," he said proudly. My happiness level fell dramatically as he said that. I couldn't actually tell him that I didn't think there was any baby. I had no proof yet. "Uh huh," was all I could manage to say. "So what have you got planned for the rest of the week?" he asked, happily. I sighed. "Dunno. Kirsty's been going on about getting her belly button pierced for ages now nd now her mum's said yes so I'm going with her on Saturday when she gets it done." "Are you gonna get your's done?" he asked. "I wasn't going to, why do you ask?" "I think you should, it would suit you, plus it would give you something to take your mind off of me" I laughed. "I dunno, I'll think about it." Me and Matt spoke for at least half an hour about nothing really. It just felt really comforting, hearing his voice on the other end of the phone. Eventually, he got told he had to go. "Emma, I miss you," he whispered. "I miss you too," I whispered back. "You know I love you more than anything else in the whole entire world, don't you," he asked. "Of course I do. I love you too," "I'll see you soon babe," "See ya." With that, the phone went dead and I placed it sadly back on the cradle. I looked at the picture of Matt kissing my cheek and smiled. I picked the empty photo frame from the bedside table and slid the photo inside. I placed the back on the frame and stood it up so I could see it properly. At last, I'd managed to find someone who loved me for who I was.
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 18, 2004 11:14:11 GMT -5
I've started the next bit but it's not finished so I'm not gonna post it up
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Post by the_admin on Jun 18, 2004 11:40:02 GMT -5
Aww! It's really sweet! Aside from the baby thing, of course.
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