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Post by Kolakube on May 29, 2004 12:44:00 GMT -5
Okay, the story line to this fic hasn't really started yet, but hopefully, it's gonna end up being really doody!!!!
Prologue
Me and Matt had been inseparable since birth. His mum and my mum were best friends so we spent the majority of our infant lives around each others houses. Infact, according to my mum, 'Matt' was my first proper word. Matt was about 2 months older than me and always looked after me like I was a member of his family. I always remember sitting around his house when my mum had gone shopping on her own. One time, I started crying because Matt wouldn't share his Teenage Mutant Nija Turtles action figures. As soon as he saw I was crying, he handed me one and gave me a hug. I had a lot to thank him for, he'd always been there for me and always stood up for me in an arguement. He once lost his playtimes at primary school for kicking a girl who'd been bullying me. He was just like my big brother. When we moved to secondary school, he was pit in the same class with me, but that was when we briefly fell out. Matt decided it was seriously uncool for one of the boys to hang out with one of the girls and therefore decided that he couldn't talk to me anymore. I cramped his style. When we moved into Year 8, Matt eventually decided he'd been a prat and we became friends again, even stronger than we had been before. When I got my first boyfriend, Matt was there as the shoulder to cry on when it all fell apart. Matt would always tell me who I should and shouldn't go out with. When I ignored his suggestions and ended up getting hurt, he never once said, 'I told you so'. All through my GCSE's he always managed to keep my spirits up, even though, inside, you could tell he was feeling like utter crap as well. We both passed and luckily, he ended up going to the same college as me. Matt got himself a girlfriend during the holidays. A girl I didn't particularly like. She was in our year and her name was Jennifer. She liked to think of herself as the bad girl about town. When I say bad girl about town, I mean she was basically the town's bully. That didn't seem to bother Matt though. He fell for her good looks and skimpy clothing. I never really told him what I thought of her, I just went along with it for his sake, but deep down, I could tell that she wasn't as sweet as she made herself out to be.
I stood just outside the college gates with my mates on the first monday back after the Christmas holidays. Kirsty was telling us some of the things her little sister had done on Christmas day such as pulling the Christmas tree over. I noticed Matt walking, alone, towards college. "Matt!" I shouted, walking over to him. He looked up, smiled at me and walked over to me as well. I rarely saw him alone these days. Sometimes he'd come over in the evenings when he had nothing to do but no matter how little I saw of him, he was still the same Matt. "How are you?" he asked as he hugged me tightly. My arms went around his back and I squeezed him closer to me. I noticed that he flinched slightly. "What's up?" I asked as we pulled apart. "What do you mean?" "You just flinched when I hugged you" I told him, looking into his eyes. "It's nothing, I just hurt my back when I was helping my dad with something." "What were you doing?" Matt paused for a second. "I was doing something under the car and there was this nail lying there, I scraped my whole back on it," "Lets have a look" I said. He hesitated for a second and slowly lifted up the back of his t-shirt to reveal a long scratch going across his back. He shuddered as I ran my finger along it. "That's nasty, you should get it checked out." Matt pulled his top down and turned back to face me. "It's nothing, I'm fine. I'll see you later okay." With that, he walked off leaving me a tiny bit confused.
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on May 30, 2004 8:12:33 GMT -5
I cant wait to hear the rest of it!! I always enjoy reading your fics!! Oh btw I know how it feels to have your best friend go out with a girl and you know she's not right for him!! Its hard not to tell them but they always find out in the end!!
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Post by Kolakube on May 30, 2004 8:57:27 GMT -5
"Is he alright?" asked Aesha as I walked back over. "He didn't really say," "Where's Jennifer?" asked Kirsty. "They're usually joined at the hip," I shrugged. "Something seemed up with him, maybe they've split up," I said as we walked into the building. "You gonna talk to him?" Aesha said, pulling the door open. I nodded. "He's my best friend, I need to find out what's up with him," At that moment, Matt walked into the classroom, a look of anger across his face. "Good luck," whispered Aesha as we sat at our desks.
At lunch, I decided to grab Matt and talk it over with him. After searching for about 20 minutes, I eventually found him behind the toilets, smoking. "Hey," I said quietly as I approached him. He looked up at me and smiled weakly. "Want one?" he asked, offering me the cigarette packet. I shook my head. He closed the lid and stuffed the box back in his bag. "So, how are you?" he asked, leaning back against the wall. "I was going to ask you the same thing," "What do you mean?" "You just seemed really out of it this morning. Like you were on another planet. Where's Jennifer?" "She's ill," he told me quickly. "What's the matter with her?" "She's got a stomach bug or something, she didn't really tell me." Something seemed strange in the way he was acting. "Are you sure you're all right, you can talk to me you know." he smiled at me and hugged me. "I know. Sorry if I've been a bit off with you, I've just had alot of things on my mind. Coursework and shit, it's just getting too much for me at the moment," he sighed. "Well if you ever want some time out, you can always come round mine. I'm there most of the time. Actually, just go round even if I'm not there. My mum will be there if you need someone to talk to," he smiled at me. "Cheers Emma, but stop worrying about me, I'm going to be fine." "You keep saying that but I don't think you are. You seem so angry and stressed all the time." I wasn't sure how he was going to react to that so I stood nervously. "If I need you, I'll come and get you," he smiled. I nodded and walked away. What he had just said, briefly translated as 'If I want your help, I'll ask for it,' that was just the polite version.
When I sat at home that night, I thought about Matt. It was quite possible that his back had been scratched on a nail but I somehow didn't believe him. There was something about the way he was acting that told me that something deeper down was the matter. I wanted to know what it was, but since he'd started dating Jennifer, we hadn't been as close as we used to be. I couldn't call him because we never had anything to say over the phone anymore. To say I missed my phone calls and long conversations with Matt is an understatement. Somedays, all I want is to sit down and just catch up on everything we've missed. I hear a lot of Matt's news through my mum nowadays and it's definatley not the same. While I was thinking, the phone rang. I ran downstairs and picked it up. "Hello?" I said, putting the phone to my ear. "Oh, hello Emma, It's Linda," Matt's mum regularly rang our house to chat to my mum. "Oh, Hi, mums just gone out but I can get her to ring you back if you want," I told her. "Oh no, it was actually you I wanted to talk to," "Me?" I said, confused. "Yes, I've noticed that Matt's been a bit down recently," "Yeah, I've noticed that as well." "Oh, do you have any idea what's the matter with him?" "No, I tried to talk to him today at school but he said he didn't want to talk about it." Linda paused for a little while. "Do you think you could come over when you rmum comes tomorrow?" "Um, I should be able to yeah," "Good, maybe you'll be able to get something out of him," "I'll try," "Thank you, I'll see you tomorrow then," "Yeah, bye," I hung up and thought about what I was going to say to Matt the next day.
This is going to be a bit different, it's gonna have a twist in it!!!!
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Post by the_admin on Jun 1, 2004 3:43:18 GMT -5
MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE!!!
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 1, 2004 12:07:35 GMT -5
This is a short bit....
The next day at school, Matt arrived without Jennifer again. When I saw him, he was wearing his hood on his hoodie up. If I didn't recognise his clothes, I wouldn't have known it was him. "Matt!" I shouted, running over to him. He looked up. "What's up with the hood?" I asked as I neared him. "I'm just a bit cold, that's all," he mumbled. "Matt, it's boiling today," I told him, confused. "Well you might think so but I don't" he said through gritted teeth. "Why are you being like this with me?" I asked. "You just keep blocking me out. I'm your friend, I can tell there's something wrong." He sighed. "Look Emma, I'm just stressed out at the moment and people asking me what the matter is all the time doesn't really help the situation." "Maybe if you told someone then it wouldn't be as much of a stress." I suggested, hoping that he would maybe tell me something. "If I show you something, you have to promise not to tell anyone at all." "Promise," I said, smiling at him. He took my hand and dragged me behind a tree near the college gates. He slowly took his hood off to reveal a massive bruise that took up the majority of his left cheek. It went around his eye as well. "Shit, how the fuck did you do that?" I asked hugging him. "I walked into a door," I pulled away and looked up at him. "You expect me to believe that?" "Well it's true." I tutted. "Emma, why can't you just believe me for once in your life?" "Because it's bullshit Matt. You never walked into a door, it's just a lame excuse." He rolled his eyes. "I don't get you. You start fussing over me, asking me what's the matter and what's happened, then you don't believe me when I do tell you. Thanks a lot. What happened to trusting each other? We used to do it all the time when we were little, now you don't even trust me to look after myself. You've really changed." He went to walk off but I grabbed his arm. "No Matt, you've changed. You never used to be like this. You never used to be all stressy and you sure as hell never used to be all mysterious. You never wanted to keep yourself to yourself. You always wanted us to share our problems and help each other out. Now you're just pushing everyone away. I dunno what's happened to you." I shouted. He turned back to face me. "I've grown up and I've moved on. Maybe you should do the same," he scowled. I let go of his arm and watched as he walked away.
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Post by the_admin on Jun 1, 2004 12:13:48 GMT -5
YOU FONKING COCKMONKEY!! Just talk to the gal! SHE WANTS TO HELP!! *breaks out in tears* YOU DICKHEAD!
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 1, 2004 12:16:55 GMT -5
Okay, talk about getting emotionally involved!!!!! I take it that comment was aimed at Matt!!!!
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Post by the_admin on Jun 1, 2004 12:30:33 GMT -5
Erm, yeah. Not at you anyway . Hehe Btw, there are no censored words whatsoever anymore on this forum, just so you know. I started to get annoyed by all the little * thingies. For example: fucking cockmonkey. Woohoo
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 2, 2004 5:28:54 GMT -5
Its really good but you know that already!!! Awww poor you your only trying to help!!! Woohoo!! No censored words!!! Fuck, shit, cock....... um yeah you get the point!! ;D
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Post by the_admin on Jun 2, 2004 5:51:52 GMT -5
Yeah, I reckon I'm a pretty good admin, aren't I?
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 2, 2004 7:29:25 GMT -5
Well....................!! lol!! Only jokin!! You are the best at being an admin!! ;D
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 4, 2004 11:27:34 GMT -5
That night, I tried desperately to get out of going to Matt's house, but mum was having none of it. I'd promised Linda I was going, therefore, I was going. Whether Matt was talking to me or not. When we arrived on the doorstep, I kept nagging mum to make the visit short and sweet. Then I wouldn't be stuck with him for very long. Linda answered the door. "Hi, Emma, Matt's in his room, just go up." Usually, if I'd been told just to go up to Matt's room, I would have bounded up the stairs two at a time. Today, I walked a bit more slowly. As I stood outside his door, a Foo Fighters poster staring back at me, I was contemplating what to say. Slowly, my hand reached up and I knocked the way I always did. "What?" came Matt's voice on the other side of the door. I slowly turned the handle and let myself in, half expecting a stream of abuse. Matt, who was sitting on his bed reading a magazine, looked up at me. "Oh, what do you want?" he asked, emotionlessly. I shut the door behind me. "To talk, I don't want us to fall out," I said, standing nervously, waiting for a response. He sighed and put away his magazine. "I know, I'm sorry I snapped at you, I just didn't want a big fuss," I walked over and sat at the foot of his bed. "So, are we mates again?" I asked. He grinned at me and pulled me in for a hug. "Of course we are." I sat back. The swelling on his bruise had gone down a little bit but it still looked really sore. "So which door did you walk into then?" I asked, looking him in the eye. He smiled and shook his head. "You know I didn't walk into a door. I got punched a couple of times." "Who by?" "It doesn't matter, it's sorted now." I shook my head at how stubborn he was and lay back so my head was rested on his chest. "Matt, Jennifer's here to see you," shouted Linda up the stairs. Matt sat bolt upright and pulled me up with him. "What are you doing?" I asked him as he pulled me over to the cupboard. He flung the doors open and pushed me in. "Look, just stay in here, I'll explain later," he slammed the doors shut and I sunk to the floor. Through a tiny crack between the doors, I realised I could see everything that was going on. Jennifer walked through the door and Matt walked over and kissed her. As long as they didn't start getting too heavy with each other, I was going to be fine where I was. "Baby, I came to apologise about last night. It was really wrong of me and I was really out of order." she mumbled in her, oh-so-annoying voice. I could see she had her arms wraped firmly around Matt's neck and he was stroking her cheek. "Hey, it's okay, don't worry about it," he replied. Something was definatley up between the two of them and I wasn't exactly sure of what it was. "It looks really bad though, I didn't think they were that tough on you," she said. Suddenly the penny dropped. She had something to do with Matt getting beaten up. "It looks worse than it is," Matt replied in a sickly tone. "So we're still okay?" she asked. Matt just nodded. "Look, I hope you don't get upset, but can you go? I just feel really ill and I want to get an early night," he lied. "What's the matter with you?" "I think I just caught what you had but I'll be fine," "Well I'll see you soon baby," she kissed him and let go of him. "See you," he said, sitting back on the bed. I waited until I heard the front door slam and climbed out of the cupboard. "So are you going to tell me what really happened? Or are you sticking by your original story?" I asked. He looked up at me and actually looked scared. "I told Jen I was going to go round her house yesterday to see her because she felt ill. I said I'd go at 4, as soon as I got out of college but I didn't turn up until 5:30. I had to drop some work off here first and then I had to do a couple of things for my mum." I nodded, concentrating on the story. "When I got there she started shouting at me for being late and accused me of cheating on her. Her brothers heard and she just stood there while they beat me up," I sat shocked. Matt was still going out with her after all that. He lifted up his T-shirt. On his stomach was a curved red line. "She hit me with the iron in the stomach a couple of weeks ago," "Was that thing on your back anything to do with her?" he nodded. "She threw a glass at me but missed. It hit the wall and smashed, went all over the floor. She pushed me over and I cut my back in the glass. It went right through my t-shirt," "Matt, why are you putting yourself through this?" I asked "You can't possibly love her." "Part of me does but the other part of me just can't stand her. I don't even know why I do it to myself. I think I'm just scared that If I leave her, I'll never find anyone else who cares for me," "She doesn't care for you," "Well, someone who I can rely on and someone who I can be there for," "You can be there for me." He didn't have a reply for that. He just shifted closer to me. "I care so much for you Emma. I'm just scared that if I care for you too much, I'm going to hurt you in some way," I looked into his eyes and smiled. I placed my hand on his cheek and kissed him. Although it was meant as a friendly kiss, it felt like something more. Matt pulled away. "No, I have a girlfriend," he told me. I shook my head. "You've just told me you don't love her." "No I didn't." he said defensively. "Matt, even if you do love her, she doesn't love you. Do you think she'd beat you up?" "She said sorry," "Yeah, and what about the time when she beats you up so much you end up in hospital, will sorry be good enough then? And what if she hurts you so much, she kills you. One little word isn't enough to make up for what everyne will have lost. You're a great person and you're worth so much more than sorry. You deserve someone who loves you and respects you for who you are," "You?" he said, practically smirking at me. "I never said that, I just said not her. She doesn't deserve you." "Look, I'll think about it and when I make a decision, you'll be the first to know," he hugged me.
Woohoo, swear words!!!!!!
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Post by Matt's_Muffin! on Jun 4, 2004 13:43:54 GMT -5
Awww poor Matt!! *hugs* to Matt!
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Post by Kolakube on Jun 5, 2004 9:46:48 GMT -5
The next morning, on the way to school, I thought over what had happened with Matt the previous night. He seemed scared of her. I wanted him to make the right choice but I was still worried he'd end up getting hurt in the end. When I reached college, Matt was already there, something that was extremely unusual. He smiled at me and walked over. "Where's Jennifer?" I asked. He nodded towards the building. "She's in there, but I need to talk to you first." He took my hand and led me in the opposite direction to the way I was walking. "Where are we going?" "I just want there to be no chance that she sees I'm talking to you, she's not exactly your biggest fan," I sniggered. "Yeah, well the feelings mutual." We stopped at a bench just down the road. "So what did you want to talk to me about," I asked him, chucking my bag on the bench. He looked at me and bit his lip. "What!" I shouted. There was definatley something funny in the way he was acting. He quickly placed his hand on my cheek and pulled me in for a kiss. It was the most passionate kiss I had ever experienced. When I pulled apart out of breath, he smiled at me. "I thought you said you had a girlfriend," I managed to pant. He shook his head. "I thought through what you said and you're right. I'm going to dump her." "About fucking time. But what's the deal with practically sucking my face off?" I smiled. He shrugged. "Dunno really, I just wanted to do it," "Okay, well just warn me next time." He nodded and walked me back towards college. I didn't really see him through the rest of the day but waited excitedly for him outside after lessons were over. It was going to be the beginning of the rest of our lives and, considering how he'd kissed me earlier, maybe it would be together. Aesha saw me and walked over to me. "What are you so happy about?" she grinned. "Nothing," I grinned back. She rolled her eyes. "Come on, It's either a boy or money. My guess is the first one," I looked at her and she stared straight back at me, eyebrows raised and a grin on her face. She knew me too well and knew that I would tell all under the slightest interrogation. "Its Matt." "Isn't it always," she sighed. "What's that supposed to mean?" "Well everyone can see how important he is to you. He's all you talk about," "He's a mate," I told her, "And anyway, you haven't heard what I'm going to say yet," "Go on then," she sighed. "This goes no further than me and you, promise," "Brownie promise," "You're not a brownie," she shrugged. "Doesn't mean I don't want to be," I shook my head and laughed. "He's dumping Jennifer," "And....." "And I think he's going to ask me out," I shrieked. "And you're gonna say no right," "Are you crazy?" I laughed, "I thought you just said that he was a mate," "Well yeah he is, but...... Oh, I dunno, I suppose I do fancy him," I suddenly became aware that Aesha was watching something behind me. I turned and what I saw bought my whole world crashing down around me. Matt was walking hand in hand with Jennifer, he was laughing, she was giggling her head off. "You alright Emma," Aesha asked, placing her hand on my shoulder. I nodded. "I knew it was too good to be true," I sighed.
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Post by the_admin on Jun 5, 2004 14:26:56 GMT -5
*screams* AWW NOOOOO MATT YOU FUCKING ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************* ********************************************
(Yes, that were too much swear words)
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