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Post by ilovejamessomuch on Jan 21, 2005 14:04:26 GMT -5
i cried when i read it but it's great, pls continue
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Post by chaslee7 on Jan 21, 2005 21:19:04 GMT -5
oh thanks a lot, i really appreciate of what u think about this fic ;D i spent lots of my time on this^^
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Post by chaslee7 on Jan 21, 2005 22:56:21 GMT -5
~~~ “Erm…matt.” “Hmm.” “I know it’s a bit unkind of what I’m gonna say but don’t we meant to go to your mate’s?” “Hmm….”, still he just mumbled beside her. He was getting too drowned of the feeling to be beside of her, having her in his arms, though they actually didn’t do anything further. “Matt.” She once again called his name. “Hmm…” “Matt, it’s seven now and I thought you said that your mate didn’t want you to be late did he?.” “Oh, shit! It’s seven ?!” she calmly nodded, followed by him jumped out of the couch hastily. he rubbed his face, took a glance over to the watch on the wall. “C’mon we gotta run!” he said as he quickly grabbed her hand and pulled her up the couch. “Are we really gonna run?” “No, we’ll catch a cab.” He answered on their way through the corridor. They went a half running as matt made a phone call for the cab. The lift came to a stop and he pulled her in even before the door barely wide opened. He pressed the button for the first floor. His face kept looking up as his feet tapped down the ground, waiting for the lift to come stop. And a minute later, the sound that signed the lift came to stop heard by them. and once again, he pulled her out before the lift could get wide opened. The sounds of the rain dropped down the ground rapidly, echoed around the lobby. The rain was getting so fast like it had planned it would never stop. The wind, not get the bore, still sent shiver through their skins right away when they stood right at the building front glassed door. He tightened his grip on her hand as he realised how freezing the weather was. “We’re gonna be late, we’re gonna be sooo late!”, he said as he rubbed his hands against hers to make them warmer. “Sorry, I should of warned you earlier.” She said, slightly looked up to him. “No! it’s my fault, entirely my fault! I know I wouldn’t do something other than ‘hmm’ like what I did even if you warned me earlier.” He replied. He hugged her tightly as he leant his top head on hers after he noticed the wind was blowing so hard, whipping all around and brought the freezing air. She looked at his face up awkwardly, the second time she felt that way around him. The taxi came, stopped right in front of the door where they were at. He took off his coat and put it on top of them to protect them from the rain drops as he gently guided her walk towards the taxi. She climbed into the car with matt hold the coat on top of her head while him self get soaked with the rain. Then he followed to climb in behind her. He shut the door and put his coat back on and told the driver the place they directed to. “Cold?” she asked, looked over to him. His face got paler with his nose a slight red and his hair stick to his forehead. But instead he smiled, and nodded. “A bit.” He answered. “You’re wet, you need a change.” “I’ll change when we get there, perhaps james has something fits on me.” she nodded with matt still treated her so gently. He rubbed her hands against his while she knew that he was cold him self. He shivered and his lips a slight blue, made her to take a move. She pushed his hands away. “It’s wet, you could get ill by this.” She said as he kept watching her taking off his coat. She took off her coat and softly rubbed his head with it to dry him up. “Here, wear mine.” She offered. “No! you could get ill your self!” “And so could you.” she said in return, instead of him shook his head disagreed. “Ok, none of us wear the coat, fair enough!”. He slightly gasped when suddenly charlotte hugged him. “What is this for?” “You’re shivering, means you’re freezing. I told you, you could get ill if you keep to be in this wet shirt, I’m transferring my body heat to you so at least you wouldn’t get so cold.” He swallowed for once. “How you feel?” “Better….lots better.” He answered, closing his eyes as he felt so right. no more cold he felt. Even he thought that he wouldn’t get freezing if he buried into a six feet snow. ~~~ He knocked the door a couple of times when he had paid the cab after they arrived. He waited for a reply from inside as he kept smiling to her, held her hand in his. A minute later the door opened to reveal a blonde haired guy with blue eyes stood in front them. “Shit, you matt! I told you to not………” he trailed off as soon as he noticed a girl stood next to matt. “Charlotte, meet james, james meet charlotte.” Matt introduced them. james smiled, shaking his hand to hers. She smiled to him as well as he guide them inside the front room or instead the living room for the people who live there. “I’m sorry for him” matt whispered to her which replied by a smile. “So, what’s this gorgeous girl would like to drink?” he asked after they both sat on the couch. She laughed. “I’d like to get a hot chocolate if you don’t mind.” “Hot chocolate, will be ready to serve! Just a min!” he said as he turned round to the kitchen next to the room they were at. “Hey, james! Where’s cock monkey? Thought that he wouldn’t of being more late than me.” matt went a half shouted at james who was still at the kitchen. “No, he’s out to get us some pizza.” Heard an answer from the kitchen. “Cock monkey?” charlotte asked strangely to him. “Oh, just one other guy, you’ll meet him very soon.” He replied. James walked into the room with a cup of hot chocolate in his hand. “Your hot chocolate.” He gave it out to her. “Thanks.” She replied. “Where’s mine?” Matt said. “Fucking hell…..you’re late and you still want me to make you a drink?! Get it by your self!” he replied. “Pig!”, matt muttered as he slowly got back up and was about to walk over the kitchen when suddenly charlotte grabbed his hand and pulled him down the couch. “No, I’ll get it for you and you too james if you want. So what do you like to have?” “No! you’re a guest I should be the one who serve you! don’t bother, just let that stupid lame git to get his own drink.” “Well, that’s one, I don’t wanna be treated like a guest in here. We’re all friends arent we? Unless you guys still think that I’m a stranger then I wont bother to stick all by my self in here and get really bored.” James sighed and briefly looked over to matt who was stunned watching her. “Ok, you can find all you need on the racks and I’d like to have a coffee.” “You?” she turned to matt. “Oh……….same with james.” “Sure, wait here, I’ll get these served for you two.” She smiled and walke headed to the kitchen, left them stared behind her. “Jeez……she’s perfect! Where did you find her, matt?” “She’s one of the other workers in the restaurant.” “So…are you both?” He shook his head as he lifted his shoulders to him, knowing what james meant to say. “I don’t know.” “What do you mean you don’t know?” “Well…..yes, I definitely fall in love with her and I’ve told her that, but she hasn’t really give me the answer.” “Ergh, that’s ashame. She’s perfect……I mean I know that this is the first time I meet her, but I just can guess that she has all the guys want from a girl.” “I know.” ~~~ She looked all around the room. the wall all white painted and the kitchen stuff placed neatly, making her briefly didn’t think that it was the kitchen in a guy’s house. But then she get assured her self that james didn’t use the kitchen oftenly, and that’s why it could get this perfectly neat. She turned over to a hang cupboard on one side of the wall. She opened it and looked for the coffee she needed to make. She took two of the glasses out of it and poured them down with some coffee she found.
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Post by ilovejamessomuch on Jan 23, 2005 10:11:41 GMT -5
more more more more!!
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:29:53 GMT -5
thx, so here it is....
“I’m back!”, the deep heavy voice came to heard with the sound of the door slight harshly closed, made the wall a bit trembling. “Oh thank you I’m starving down here waited for you!”, James said, replying it as he took the flat thin pizza box from the table where the person put on to. “Matt, the fifth time you’re late and next time there’ll be no other chance, you’d be punished to wash my car for a month!”, he said while took off his wet coat and threw it aside the couch. “Hey hey! I thought he would be my housekeeper for a month like what we had decided to!”, james shouted on him with a bite of pizza chewed in his mouth. “Stop! I’d do nothing, not for any either of you two! I was late along with acceptable reasons so why should I get punished!” “Right, so whats your reason of being late now? apart from the other ‘acceptable’ lame reasons you’ve thrown to us?”, the guy said. “Well….erm….i got an over slept in case I was working out for the tunes all night, you guys should’ve thanked me for that!” “Right, so now lets hear the tunes you’ve found then.” James gave out a guitar to him with ‘I don’t believe you’ look across his face. Matt took the guitar but he didn’t confidently play any tunes on it. “I forgot the tunes and I left the paper I wrote it on at my flat.” “Right, if that’s another of your ‘acceptable’ reasons, you still would get a punishment to wash my car.” “No! He’d be my housekeeper!” “Whatever James! He’d get punished that’s a final we’ll think about what we’d do on him later.” He said, replied by an discontented look of james. “Neways jim, do u have something fits on me to wear? You see I’m wet.” “Yeah, check it up on my closet and can you please take some piece of papers on my drawer.” “Yer ok.” He replied as soon as he stood back up and walk, stumbling through the staircases. “Charlie where you going? You don’t expect me to have this pizza on my own do you, cuz I’d glad to.” “No, I’ll make my self a hot coffee, its hella freezing after I gone out there. Shit, I got no signals on my moby here!” “Really? Maybe you should check it somewhere with better signals reception.” “I know what to do james!”, he said as he kept looking down his mobile phone and walk headed to the kitchen. “Fuck’s sake where are you!”, he muttered. Right after he made his way into the kitchen, the sounds of cringing glasses shifted his attention. A light brown haired girl stood there backing on him. He stared at her, was like something rushing into his head. He stared behind her, kept looking enquiredly on her back until he felt a tap on his shoulder. “Hey, what are you staring at!” “Jeez, Matt! Nothing, just…..who’s that girl?” “Oh she’s the girl I want you guys to meet, I’ll intro her to you at the living room ok? And you better go back there I need something to do privately in here.” “But I just need a coff….. “Go!” he interrupted, pushing Charlie’s back through out the kitchen door. She noticed the noise and turned around, found matt was pushing someone tall out through the door. “Matt.” She called out. “Yeah?” “Matt, I just need a coffee!”, he struggled from matt’s hands on his back, tried to turned around. “What are you doing?” Matt quickly kicked his back, forcing him to thrown out through the door and shut it closed.
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:34:01 GMT -5
“Nothing!” he answered under his breath, smiling and walked towards her. “So you got the coffee ready there?” “Uh yeah, is it another one of your mates?” “Yeah. look I’ve changed!” “Great, I see that. Is it james’?” he nodded. “You like it?” “Matt, it doesn’t matter whether I like it or not, it’s dry and you wouldn’t get ill that’s all that matter!” “Yea ok.” He smiled, took the coffee mug which she given out to and sipped the half contents. “Be careful you there, it’s really hot.” He smiled, putting the mug down the table and leant over to her. but then he stopped right when he saw her held her head in pain. “Charlotte, you ok?” he asked in concern and catched her when she was suddenly almost collapsed down the floor. “I’m fine, just getting a small headache don’t worry.” She replied, smiling and stood back up improperly, was like she had a hangover. “How can I not worried! It’s not just a small headache is it. I’ll call a doctor!” “No! I’m fine, really! Look, nothing’s wrong with me.” she tried as hard as she could to barely stand up. she lightly shook her head for a couple of times and smiled. “See, I’m ok don’t worry.” “But you don’t…” “Matt! Please….” She interrupted. He shrugged and stroke every strain of the flopped hair on her face with his thumb and nodded. She smiled back, grabbed his hand back down and turned round to take the other coffee mug behind. “We better go back out there, james’ waiting for the coffee.” He once again nodded as his eyes still reflecting of his anxiety on her. She walked the first, followed closely by matt stared behind her. “James, your coffee.” “Oh thanks babe this is perfect!” he replied, taking the coffee mug from her hand as he kept chewing the pizza bites was like he’d never stop. Once again she saw the figure matt was pushing out, sat beside of james, stared at her. Their eyes locked for some reason. Those hazel eyes and those exceedly large eyebrows identified him as someone she recognised. But she thought he couldn’t be….”Charlotte, meet…” “Charlie….. ” she whispered, loud enough to be heard by her self. His eyes widened with blankness as terrible electric shocks felt crawled down their spines. “Charlotte…….??” “Hey you know each other?” matt broke the awkward silence, but they didn’t seem to be bothered but kept gazing at each other, tried to identify every single feature they could see by their eyes. A single tear slowly sliding down from her eyes as she stared at the person she wanted to see the most for five years. And now she could see he was right there…..in front of her. Something hit the feelings in all of sudden. A heavier headache strictly stroke her, she couldn’t stand. She collapsed, hit the floor harshly. Everything went dark….no sounds. She was getting unconscious. ~~~ July 14th, 2006 The sunlight was restrained to fully shine upon the room by white curtains on the windows, yet still came in through the gap. It fell right on her face, stirring her from sleep. Her eyes flickered as she catched another bright light from the lamps, dazzling her eyes. Once she get used to it, she looked up to the ceiling and turned to the lower space. The room all plain white and extremely clean as the endemic smell pervaded with the air. There still a small headache kicked in, making her closed her eyes to hold the pain inside. Noticing something moved about the bed, she opened her eyes and looked lower down to find someone was leaning on her hand as she could feel his breath blew over her skin. He stirred, slowly lifted his head up and yawned. He quickly looked down on her, noticing that she’s awake. “Charlotte! You’re awake babe?” he said while gently caressed her hair. “Charlie…..? is it really you?” she said, could hardly believe that was Charlie there beside her. “Yes, charlotte it’s me. I’ve missed you so much, it was killing me! I can hardly believe that we finally meet.” He replied, pulling her into a warm hold in his arms. “You have no idea how much I’ve missed you, Charlie.” She slid her hands and rested them on his back as she closed her eyes felt the feelings mixed up. “But why did you leave me?”, she said as the tears trickling down her cheeks. He held her tighter by his arms as he closed his eyes. “I didn’t want to, I swear I wouldn’t ever wanna leave you, charlotte. But mom and dad had planned to move to New York. We should’ve got you along with us, but you moved out. if only I knew one day earlier I would do anything to screw the plan up, but I didn’t. I came to your house but you’d gone, I didn’t know what to do. I was regretting that I did nothing! I was suffering that you weren’t with me, charlotte.” His body started to shiver as he tried to fight the tears back. She wrapped him tighter as if someone would get him away again. “Just don’t leave me anymore.” “I wont, I swear I wont.” He said as he tightened his arms wrapped around her rather weary body and soul. Neither of them could pull away as they dig out the heap of feelings that buried down for years. “Hey! Sorry, Charlie the curry is not….god, charlotte you’ve woken up!” Matt rushed through the door after he saw that she had woken, making them slowly pull away. He ran into her. “How you feel hun?” he asked as the anxiety shown clearly in his eyes. “I feel ok.” She smiled. “Really.” She added convincing him. “It’s better be the truth this time, cuz you said something the opposite last night and see what happened to you now.” he said while rubbing her hands, showing out all of his love and caress “I feel great, matt that’s the truth. I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you that I had a really bad headache, cuz I just don’t want you to worried about me.” He smiled, nodding slightly. “I’m glad if you really feel ok. And I’m glad that you finally meet charlie.” “Hmm?” “Charlie told me everything. I was always wondering who’s this Charlie you ever accidentally said and never crossed my mind that this Charlie Simpson you talked about. I didn’t know that you have a really terrible past, I wished I could relieve every time you told me that you’d been thinking about your past. But now I can stop wondering cuz now I know everything and I feel great for you two.” He smiled. “Thanks matt.” She smiled thankfully on him. “Oh jeez, it’s getting to be so sentiment in here. Lets just move on, I’ll get the doctor to tell us what happened to you ok?” She nodded. “Right. Hey charlie, you’re leading in here now. Keep your eyes on my girl, I’ll be right back.”
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:37:37 GMT -5
“Get off you Matt! Now I’m the one who has the right to decide everything for her, you better behave if you don’t want me to take her off from you.” He laughed. “Yes, master!” He laughed, infecting the others and walked off. ~~~ “So what happened to her, doc?” matt asked to the doctor, still in charlotte’s room at the hospital as the others listened. “Well there’s nothing wrong, I suppose it was just a normal headache that caused by her hard work and stress.” “Oh, thank god.” He sighed as relief shown across his face. “But that’s just a temporary result, I’ll need to do some further examines to make sure that nothing’s wrong.” “Could there be any possible something wrong happened?” Charlie asked, taking back the apprehension to everyone. “Yes, there could be, but I can’t determine anything happened now until we get the result.” Then suddenly everyone drowned back into anxiety. “Hey, nothing’s wrong with me, relax you guys! I know how healthy I am, so just cool it down, I’m ok.” She snapped. “But doctor, while you do those tests do I have to stay here until the result comes out?” “No, you don’t have to. You can even go home now and wait until it comes out which I suppose will be….we’ll try to get it done as soon as we can, it supposed to be at the next three days.” “Ok it’s great cuz I just cant stay any longer.” She smiled, replied by the other smiled back half heartedly. “Come on, where’s your optimistic sense! You guys want me to stay here?” Matt and Charlie shook their heads. “So please just be a bit enthusiastic for me, we’ll know that I’m a fully healthy at the next three days.” “Yes ‘course we know nothing’s gonna happen, you’re the strongest girl that I’ve ever known, charlotte. Everything’s just gonna be fine.” Charlie smiled and gently stroking her back with the whole trust he could bring as she leant on his shoulders, closing her eyes. “Ok thanks, doc, we’ll wait for the result.” Matt said. The doctor nodded, smiled and went out the room. “C’mon I wanna go home now!”, she said as she jumped off the bed, making them spontaneously grabbed her arms. ~~~ She closed her eyes, could barely feel his arms wrapped around her, keeping her warm from the cold night air, comfortingly. He pulled the blanket up to her chin, yet his shoulders as he kept rubbing her back gently. Something has changed, something she didn’t know. Some other feel she wondered what. But her longing lead just everything in her mind, enclosing her brain to think about something else but the joy to be back together with him again.. “You sure you don’t want me to sleep on the couch?” “No, Charlie please don’t. I’m still trying to ensure my self that this is really you, I missed you so badly.” She said, planted her cheek deeply on his chest. “I missed you too, charlotte.” He replied and kissed her top head lovingly. She decided to stay at Charlie’s flat until the result comes out while she was in a good term of being with him. She didn’t want to go just anywhere without him, she was scared as if he would leave her again. Charlie lived alone in his flat since 8 months a go, as Mr and Mrs. Simpson still in New York doing their business. Mrs. Jones had got informed by them that charlotte’s met Charlie, which glared her as well and let her stayed at his. Something she didn’t know was charlotte got into the hospital for a couple of hours. They concerned she would have an exceed apprehension to her so they didn’t tell her. ~~~ July 15th, 2006 “Charlotte, your birthday present!” “Ergh, Charlie! Why you always ask me what I want for my birthday. I think I’ve told you that I don’t expect anything more, you’ve given me everything!” “Yeah you’ve told me five years a go but honestly I don’t get affected, so now just tell me what you want for your birthday, it’s only two days left!” “Yeh, and this year you have more people asking you for what you want. Charlotte, birthday present becomes such an important now, you gotta have something to remind you of your last year of being a teenager!” matt said in quick, grabbed her hand, pleaded. “See.” Charlie spoke again as his widened, looked over to her who was leaning back on the couch, looked down her lap. “Honestly, I don’t expect for anything else, what more should I tell to convince you two? I’ve been given a lot of the best amazing moments in my life, I just couldn’t ask for more, cuz there is nothing better than this, I love you two!” “Aaww, you shouldn’t of said that!” Matt said, blushing beside her. “Well I love you too, babe!” Charlie leaned forward and hugged her by his comforting arms. The feel rushed in again. She felt like she wouldn’t of letting him pull away, but she did. He smiled as he could feel something she had inside. He sighed, lightly shook his head. “Well I better think by my self then, it will be a surprise I guess, and it’s gonna be the best birthday ever! Don’t ya think matt?” “No doubt! Definitely!” He replied and showed out his sweetest smile which angled her smile to rise out. He glanced over to his watch then his eyes widened, startled to realise what time it was. “Jeez, I gotta go now! Tyra’s gonna kill me cuz I’ll be late for ten mins minimum!” He said as he got up, quickly planted a kiss on her cheek, waved his hand and walked off. “He’s really in rush, I don’t think tyra would go mad at him if he late just for a couple of mins anyway.” “Well, she’s changed, Charlie. She’s not anymore of tyra you’ve ever known.” “Well yeah, everything’s changing, I’ll need to look around to find some other things that has changed so I wont get left behind, thinking they still the same. By the way you wanna go?” “Where?” “Just somewhere, you’ll know.” “Erm……ok.” She answered. He held her hand in his and pulled her up, taking her out of the flat. ~~~ “They’re enchanting aren’t they? Interested of those?” Charlie said as his finger slowly sliding down on the petals of white snowdrops flowers that planted on a small black pot. She smiled, her eyes fully dropped on the flowers, enchanted of them. “Ok. Sir, We take this one.” He said as he grope his coat pocket and took out the money costs the flower. “No, Charlie you don’t have to!”, she quickly grabbed his hands. “Charlotte, I know you love it so please just don’t act like you don’t, cuz I love it too! Now can you just a bit move over I’m kinda enclose to pay for the flower here.” She slowly stepped back, bit her lip and smiled, as once again the glare entered her thought when he passed the small pot with snowdrops planted on to her. “Thanks.” She smiled even brighter as she kept on looking over to the plant she had in her hands, captivated. “You’re welcome.” He said, smiling as he could see how cheerful she was, just like the way he always wants her to be. “Come on we’re moving on.”
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:40:50 GMT -5
“Where?” “Look for something cool to do.” “Right, like what?” “Like……”, he thought for a while, biting his bottom lip as what he always does when he’s thinking. “Like look out for the pet shop maybe we can find something interesting there.” He looked over to her, catched her expression of thinking. “Why? You don’t interested? Wanna go somewhere else?” “No, it’s cool, lets get to the pet shop!”, she laughed, grabbing his laughter out as he held her hand in his and guided her over the car.
“Something in your mind bothering you, charlotte?” he asked in concern, looked aside him on their way down the road. “No.” She simply said, making him curious even more. She still held the snowdrops in her hand, looked down on it. But he knew she was thinking about something, and it was definitely bothering her mind. He did really know her. “Is it about what’s gonna come out with the hospital result?” She shrugged and lift both of her eyebrows. She’d never know how Charlie could read everything in her mind. But it obviously surprised her every time he did that. He smiled. “Charlotte, I thought you were the one who assure everyone that nothing’s wrong with you, that you’re fully healthy and everything’s gonna be just fine?” “I don’t know.” She said, still couldn’t bring her face up to look over to him. “I know you were! Charlotte, babe listen to me.” he reached out his hand to gently stroke her hair reassuringly as he kept looking out for the road. “You were right. Nothing’s wrong with you, you’re fully healthy and everything’s gonna be just fine like what you said. I know it and I can assure you just anytime you get lost. I’ll always be here anytime you need me, you’ll be fine.” She didn’t respond. He pulled aside the road. “What are you doing?” For a while he didn’t answer but kept looking into her eyes, as she could see a different sparkle shown in his eyes. “I need you to be brave, charlotte! I need you to be strong to face everything that’s gonna come out in your way no matter it’s the hospital result or anything between us.” “What do you mean?” Something suddenly rushed into their minds. All the things she could see went blur in her eyes and brain. She froze, as seconds ticking over between them. She didn’t know what brought it in when she felt his warm lips landed on hers. But it felt so right. The feel back streamed down again, as a small shiver creeping through her skin. She didn’t fight back, cuz she didn’t want to. she knew it felt so right for both side. he pulled her even closer, pressed his lips against hers, brought butterflies flied around them. she kissed him back, brings out the passion getting heated. It wasn’t her brother kissing her, she felt that. It was the man she loved, as a female. He’s no longer just an elder brother for her. “I love you.” They mumbled between their kisses at the same time. ~~~ “I never thought that I could be this way,” she said, planted her cheek deeper on his bare chest, enjoying the rhyme of his heart beat. He slid his hands into the blanket, rested them on her waist and kissed her on the forehead. “Me neither, I don’t know how can everything go this way. I thought I was still feeling you as my little lovely sister when I felt this strange sense rushed into my heart. I could hardly breathe, it was something that I didn’t feel before on you. I love you charlotte, I don’t know why I just love you so badly.” He said, pulled her even closer. “I love you too, but how? You were my brother.” “Yea and you were my sister, but we cant fight this feeling we have can you?” “I don’t know, this just seems so wrong.” He slowly pulled away and sat up, looked down on her. she looked up to him, noticing he was predicting something.
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:43:00 GMT -5
“Matt isn’t it?” “What?” “You like him?” “What do you mean?” “Do you like him? If you do I’ll just back off for you two, I will never rush you, charlotte.” “Charlie I don’t know what you’re talking about! You’re confusing me!” “I know he loves you and I’m sure that you know it as well, if you don’t feel this right and tend to be with him, I’d be willing to let you to. just tell me if you do like him.” “Stop it, Charlie! Stop!!! I cant stand for this! You said that you wouldn’t of getting me rushed but you just did! I don’t know what you think about how I feel on matt and I don’t care, I really don’t care! I just wanna be with you for the rest all my life and that’s all what I want! Unless you don’t feel the same I’d be the one who back off from you and I’d be more than willing if you want me to! I don’t care about matt, I don’t care about anything else! So please Charlie don’t make me feel so dead, cuz once again I feel like you’re gonna leave me again!!!”, she spoke up in a quick, letting out of her impassion in a slight anger as tears started to sliding down rapidly onto her cheeks. He stunned as the guilt raising inside him. He felt so much of sorry to spoke of what he shouldn’t of said. He moved over to her, softly pulling her by his arms. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to get you think that way. I love you, I cant live without you, charlotte please don’t cry again.” He said, touched her cheek and wiped the tears off of her cheeks with his thumb as she carried on sobbing on his shoulder. He caressed her hair calmingly as relief sense exploded in him. But it soon faded by some strain of hair loosed down in between his fingers. ~~~ July 16th, 2006
Tonight I need your sweet caress, hold me in the darkness Tonight you calm my restlessness, you relieve my sadness
She wrote it down on the piece of paper as she laid on the bed in a sunlit room of Charlie’s. she didn’t know why she wrote that. It just popped out of her mind was like the words tell her what she really felt at the time. It was incomplete, she still didn’t know what they mean but she would soon enough. The sounds of footsteps scattered her thoughts. She quickly grabbed the paper and put it on the drawer then laid down again. She watched as the door slowly opened to let a black shirted body slid into it. He smiled, walked towards her after he shut the door and jumped on the bed, sat next to her. “What were you doing?” “Nothing.” “No, I know you were doing something, and I saw you hid something from me, now tell me what it is?” “Nothing!”, she replied, smiled cheekily. “Come on!”, he said, moved his hands on her shoulder and pushed her down, tickling over her. she clutched the cushion, and his hand with her other hand. He slowly pulled away, laughing. “Why the hell do you always love to do that on me!”, she said out of breath between her laughter. “I don’t know. its relaxing to see you laugh like you’re gonna choke!” “Right! why don’t you just try to choke somebody out there I need to be freed by this particular hobby of yours which driving me insane!”
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:48:11 GMT -5
“Alright, alright I’m sorry.” He said, still laughing. he rolled over, moved closer to her. he leant in to her neck where he landed one of his soft kisses which slightly tickled her. “Is this your other way of tickling me?” she said with her eyes closed and smile across her face. “Maybe.” He answered still between of the kisses. His lips slowly moved over from her neck slowly up to her chin and finally her lips. He slightly got up but still with their lips locked and rested on top of her. he slid his hand into her top as she ran his hand on his hair and neck with her other. They quickly jumped off, pulling away as the stumble sounds of someone walked towards the room. Then soon the door opened as a dark haired guy walked in. “Hey, charlotte!…….and hey Charlie!” he said as he walked towards her and sat beside her. he kissed her softly on her cheek as she could feel his delicate slight cold lips on her skin. “You feel ok?” she nodded, brought out his smile back. “What you want matt?” Charlie said on the other side beside her, as a slight jealousy burned inside him. “I think I’ve told you that I’m gonna take charlotte around the lake today.” He spoke, convincingly. But Charlie didn’t get affected and lift one of his eyebrows. “No, you haven’t.” “I have, right charlotte?” she didn’t say anything but lifted her shoulders to him. He sighed. “Ok, I haven’t. But I’m just about to tell you know, well I’m gonna take her around the lake if you don’t mind. Wait, why should I ask whether you mind or not! Anyways, we’re going now.” “Now? like right now?” she asked as her eyes widened to him. “No, you may need to change or something, I’ll just wait.” She got up and walked towards the bathroom with the guys smiled behind her. “What are you gonna do around the lake.” Charlie asked. “Do I need to tell you?” “I don’t know.” “Well I’ll take that as an answer of no, I don’t need to.” “Right! what time will you bring her back?” “Jeez, Charlie you’re starting to be a very protective brother for her! I don’t need to answer all of your questions including this one cuz I know you’re gonna keep on asking me on and on. I’m not gonna do anything harmful to her, just a chatty walk nothing more! I cant believe you don’t believe me on this! She’s not a your little sister anymore, look at her she’s a mature now!” “I was just asking you what time would you bring her back! And you replied me like you’re a professional advisor, those long lines you brought out. I just need your answer of the time, just that simple!” “Oh, darn you Charlie! I’ll bring her back at nine.” “Five!” “What! no, eight!” “Five and a quarter.” “Seven!” “Six, no more barging and doubt, take it or leave it.” “Ok, six! You happy now!” Charlie slyly smiled at him and turned around as he could hear the footsteps of her walking out the bathroom. “Ok, I’m ready!” she said. “Wow………you look great! And fast!” “Thank you.” “You’re welcome. So…….lets get going shall we?” “Sure. Charlie, I’ll be right back soon can you please water my snowdrops?” “Yea, sure. You can count this on me.” “Ok, great.” She kissed him on his cheek and walked toward the door as her hand had already in matt’s grip. “Bye.” “Bye.” He smiled behind her and blew her a kiss when they were about to walk through the door. ~~~ She slightly jumped, evading a watery mud puddle between the green grasses round the lake ground. She swung her sight right across the lake where children at under 10 ages ran all around, chasing their friends with unstoppable laughter. She smiled, watching their innocence. She missed that time, when her self ran after Charlie, tried to catch him and retaliate tickling him but anyhow she never could. And the time when Charlie and her had to slept under the bed, hid from their mother cuz they broke her favorite small porcelain statue. She once again smiled, reminded of those memories. Spattering water dispersed her thoughts. She looked aside as she wiped some drops of water off her face. “Stupid ducks!”, matt stuttered as he threw a small rock to the water, causing the ducks scattered everywhere avoiding the small tide that caused by it. “Matt! What are you doing.” She asked, her eyes widened. “The ducks they’re….ergh! never mind.” He shook his head and stared down the ground again. “Don’t you think we should find someplace to sit?” “Oh yea, I know the place c’mon!” he said, pulling her hand as he guided her to a giant and old tree on the lake edge. There was a wooden bench where no one sat on right under the tree. She looked around, noticing just several people past over that place. She slowly sat on the bench followed by him took a seat next to her. She looked up, watching many of small singing birds on every branch of the tree. A perfect place to watch the sunset, cuz the sight was straight to the lake. she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. It was beautiful, even the second best she’d ever seen. The first was the time when Charlie and her watched the sunset by the top of a hill five years a go. His hand touched her hair without noticing, twirled some strains in between his fingers and gently pulled the red ribbon that tied the whole hair neatly in the middle of the back head side. He smiled when she looked aside to him wondering what he was doing. “I like it more when you let you hair down.” He said, still smiling, raised a bit of awkward inside her. “Charlotte….”, he whispered. “Hmm?”, she mumbled. “About something that I’ve told you.” “Something you’ve told me?” he nodded, as she not quiet sure what he was talking about. “About how I feel on you if you still don’t get what I mean. well….urm….i think I just wanna know how you feel on me?” he said, looked firmly right into her eyes. She shrugged, didn’t expect he would ask the question at the time. “I don’t know, I still don’t have the answer matt.” She said as she kept looking down, played with the red ribbon he put on her lap. “No, you don’t have to give me the answer about the question I asked you four days a go, I just wanna know how you feel on me.” She thought for a while, as he kept looking at her, making her nervous even more. “Well, you’re a nice guy and you’re the best male friend I’ve ever had. I think you’re my second best friend after tyra, I feel that.” “Really?”, he smiled. “Uhum. I even told that to tyra which brought out a wrong perception about what I was talking to her. she thought I love you.” she laughed. “Well…don’t you?”, he said, shocking her. she bit her bottom lip, regretting the words she spoke. She looked down again, angled him to bring her face up.
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:53:59 GMT -5
“I love you, charlotte I really want to convince you that this is true what I feel. I love you more than anything else in this world, I’ll do everything for you no matter what. I’ll sacrifice all my life for you, doing all you want me to. I’ve never felt this way to anyone before, this is the first time and I hope it would be the last.” He said, looked deeply into her eyes, convincingly. She quiet as her brain stopped running on to think of what she should of did or say on what he just said. It was all in silence, the only sound came from the birds on the tree. He slowly let go off her hands from his grip and looked down as his hand delved deep on his coat pocket. He took a deep breath in a small second as his eyes once again explored deep into hers. “Tell me that you’re gonna be the last. Charlotte, will you marry me?”, he said, taking out a small black velvet box and opened it to reveal a white gold ring with little diamonds formed into small stars round the ring. Soon she drowned in shock, as her eyes widened unbelievably of what he did. “Matt……..”, was all she could properly say and the rest were unspelled. ~~~ As I watch you move, across the moonlit room There’s so much tenderness in your loving
For the second time of that day, she laid down on the bed, wrote the words she didn’t know how could it be thought by her. it didn’t represent anything for the situation she felt that night. But didn’t know why she really wanted to write those words. Or were it representing her feeling on someone between matt and Charlie? She told matt everything that afternoon. Just everything, about her relationship with Charlie which turned out into love. He was obviously shocked. She’d predicted that would happen, except for one thing that missed out of her prediction, he’s way too love her to give up on her. He’d always try to get Charlie out of her mind, and turned to him, just in any ways. He kept the ring, cuz he was so sure that she would accept him someday. It wasn’t a rejection but not an acceptation either. She wasn’t just so sure. She knew she loved Charlie more than anything else, but she couldn’t hurt matt. It had ever crossed her mind to be with him, but now everything’s changed, she met Charlie and all the love turned to him. “What are they supposed to mean?”, suddenly a deep husky voice came out right behind her neck, so close she could feel his breath on her skin. “What?” “Those words you wrote there.” He said, pointed to the paper. She quickly grabbed the paper and rolled over. “Nothing!”, she said, smiling to him. “No, what are you writing about?”, he asked again while tried to turn her round as she struggled in his arms. “Ok, I was just writing something, some lyrics might be, why do you wanna know anyway.” “Why do you wanna know why I wanna know?”, he said in laughter, still tried to turn her round. “Charlie, please stop! It’s not important just leave it ok!”. He laughed and stopped trying. He slowly dropped him self next to her and slightly rolled aside, giving her a soft kiss on her neck. “You’ve told him have you?” “How do you know?” she asked in return and rolled aside to him. “I just can figure it out in the way he looked at me when he brought you home. It’s as if his eyes told me that we’re rivals now.” She took a grip on his top and pulled him in for an embrace. She planted her head deeply on his chest as he gently stroke her hair. She slightly pulled away and played with his bottom shirt. “He proposed me.” she calmly spoke. “He what?!” “Proposed me. I didn’t accept it but I didn’t reject him either, I’m just not sure about how I feel on him.” “You’re not? I thought last night you told me that you love me!” “I do love you and I meant it last night. But I just cant hurt him, I don’t know what to do. He’s way so nice and sweet, I just………I cant hurt him. I don’t know what am I supposed to do?” He sighed, pulled her back closer by his arms, stroking her back. “I told you, I’m ready to face anything you decide to, and I’ll be willing to do anything for your happiness, I wont rush you into anything. Just do what you wanna do and I wont mind to let you go and be with matt, just if I knew you’d be happy with him.” “Please don’t say that again, it’s getting me more confused. You know I love you and I don’t wanna leave you. but please, answer me honestly, do you want me to be with you or would you completely glad for me if I decided to be with matt?” “Honestly………..yes, of course I want you to be with me. and….if you decided to be with matt I’d try to be glad for you but not fully, cuz I know that I lose you and it would hurt so badly. But for now I’ll do everything to convince you that I can make you happy.” She smiled, cuddled up onto his chest and sighed. “Ok, I understand.” She said and slowly got up. “I need to go to the bathroom just a minute.” He nodded. She walked towards the door of the bathroom as he could see she was clutching her bottom shirt. He kept watching her until she closed the door shut followed by the sound of the spattering water streamed down from the tap. He sighed, closing his eyes for a smile second thought he was in an awful situation. He loves her so much but he has a rival to beat up, and he was his own best mate. What more could make it worse. He raised his hand and rubbed his eyes, as he felt like he couldn’t stand to keep awake that late night. He stopped, when he noticed something touched his cheek. He was back in shock as once again he found some strains in between his fingers, and this time he found lots more strains. Not barely snapped out, he turned to look over the bathroom as a loud sound of something harmfully dropped came from inside. he quickly jumped off the bed and ran invaded to the bathroom. It was locked, so he ran into it. The door forcedly opened. He ran in to find charlotte collapsed powerless on the floor and some strains of her hair slightly brought over with the water from the shower that slowly flowed down the floor. ~~~
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 2:56:58 GMT -5
17th July, 2006
“Doc?”, Charlie asked anxiously with the doctor who has held the examines result in his hand. He fiddled his thumb on his lap as he felt something strange rushed into his mind. He couldn’t stop to think for all the probabilities that the doctor would say. The doctor him self looked a bit uncomfortable, slightly looked down to the folder of her result. “Due the examines we’ve done these three days, and yes we found something wrong in her body.” the doctor said, as if he knew Charlie has predicted that. “What is it?”. He asked anxiously even more, thinking for the worst. The awkward silence back rolling between them for a small minute. “She has a cancer on her brain, which we determined it has been there for about a month. It’s hard to say but sorry it has been too late for her, we’ll try our best but it’s just to extend a little of her time, I’m really sorry.” No words he could speak out it’s as if his heart stopped to beat. His energy suddenly gone away for what the doctor said. He dropped his face to his arms that laid powerless on the desk. He felt so alone with horrible darkness wrapped him around. The doctor did say something to him but he couldn’t barely hear him, the only sound he heard was his own speeding heart beat. He could hardly believe that it was really happening just at the time he thought the things wouldn’t get worse. ~~~ He walked slowly with emptiness in his eyes and brain as he tried to convince him self that it wasn’t happening, it was just a nightmare and he would be woken up by her bright smile that he would have in his entire life. He turned over to the door of her room. he just stood there for a while as his hand grabbed the handle, preparing him self to see the truth inside. He opened the door, revealing the same plain white room, the room he once hated to ever see again. he walked in as the tears slowly crawled down his cheeks for what he saw right in front of him. There, her body laid helpless from everything surround her. she was connected to a machine that monitoring her heart beat, beeping in every second making all sounded worse. More strains he found spread from her thinned out hair on the white pillow and sheet around her head. her skin so much got paler, making her slightly unrecognised as charlotte that he knew. The tears started to stream rapidly down his tired eyes as he slowly sat on the chair beside the bed. He held her rather cold hands tightly, and leaned on it as the tears gradually soaked the cotton material blanket. “Charlotte, baby I cant live without you please don’t do this to me. wake up, I’m begging you, please wake up, charlotte.” he said so much desperately. He felt her index finger slightly shivered. He brought his face up as he brushed the tears off his cheek, staring at her. Her eyes slowly opened, stunning on the ceiling before she realised that was someone beside her. “Charlie….”, she said in a low whisper, loud enough to be heard by her self. “Charlotte! How you feel baby?”, Charlie quickly sat up, lowered his face down to her. “My head……hurt……” she said, closed her eyes as she tried to hold a terrible pain inside. Tears slowly went down from his eyes again as he knew what that meant. “It’s ok, it’ll be gone right away. Don’t worry you’ll be just fine.” She weakly nodded. “Charlotte!”, suddenly a voice came out as Mrs. Jones rushed through the door with tears stained her cheeks. Charlie had told everyone that charlotte was in the hospital, including matt, and his family in New York right on the first minute he brought charlotte to the hospital. Mrs. Jones wasn’t so much different as how Charlie was. Her eyes had gotten so red with tears that don’t stop to stream rapidly from her eyes. She held charlotte tightly in her arms as charlotte kept smiling, calmed her down from her apprehension. It took several minutes for her to realise that there something worse than she thought happened to charlotte. The hair strains on the pillow pushed her down much deeper to the grief bottom. Charlie soon held her back as she was about to collapsed down the floor. She cried miserably on his lap. “Mom….”, charlotte spoke. Mrs. Jones slowly got back up, helped by Charlie and lowered down to her. “I’m gonna be just fine.” She said, slowly wiped the tears off of her cheek. “Mom, I’m so proud to be your daughter. I never regret that I left my family for you, cuz I know that you are my mother. My sweet, caring, lovely mother, the best that I’ve ever had. so now, mom…….wipe your tears away, I’m fine. I’ve never felt so fine. I love you and I promise I’ll be back home really soon. be brave for me……”, she said as a single tear rolled down from her eye, yet she was still smiling to her.
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 3:00:08 GMT -5
“I’m so proud that you’re my daughter, charlotte. my baby……I know you’re gonna be just fine. I’ll be so brave for you and I’ll wait for you to come home. Everything’s gonna be ok.” She said, gave a calming embrace to her as the tears kept pulling out from her blurry eyes, but she wiped it off and smiled, showing her that she is brave for her. Charlie shut his mouth as he tried to muffle his sob that should of being an out loud. He covered his face with his hands as the tears kept dropping down from her eyes through his finger gaps to the floor. He slowly slid down the wall as a massive desperation and sadness rushed through his body and soul. All of his dreams to be with her seemed to faded away. He couldn’t stand any longer to be in that room, seeing his love one laid helplessly with a short time she had. he got up and went a half ran towards the door. He closed it and leant his head on the wall, back sliding down on it. “Charlie, where’s charlotte?”. Mrs. Simpson’s voice suddenly came out from beside of him. He brought his face up to see his mother and father looked down on him with miserable anxiety shown clearly on their faces. He slowly got up and hugged her. “What happened, Charlie?”, she asked. He pulled away and stared at her eyes for a minute or so until he grew his courage up to say what he could hardly to say. He opened his mouth in shiver as a tear dropped firmly from his eye. “She has a cancer on her brain….She doesn’t have a long time living…..” He deeply breathed the air, closing his eyes. He opened his eyes back to see her dropped down the floor with Mr. Simpson hugged her by his arms. “How can it be happened!?”, she screamed. “Mom……”. He slightly looked aside to her and leant on the wall, felt the ground spinning on his feet as he couldn’t even hear any more sound or see any more sight. It’s all black, empty, silent, cold, airless, and sadness haunted all around. ~~~ He closed his eyes, feeling the all good sensibilities that he wished would get all his grief away. He cuddled his head on her stomach, enjoying the rhyme it slowly moved up and down breathing. She slightly raised her hand and rested on his head, weakly stroking it. “Today supposed to be your best birthday. Why this should be happened?”, he said, slightly clutched the blanket. “It is my best birthday, Charlie.” He brought his face up, stared at her, looking for an explanation of what she said. “I have all my family together in here for me. I meet you and experience the greatest feeling that I’ve ever felt. what more is a best one? Nothing in this world would be a better one than what happened to me now.” she smiled, he smiled back, taking her hand in his grip and kissed it. “I love you, charlotte, more than anything else in this world.” “I love you too, Charlie and even more in every second.”
Charlie stayed at the hospital that night. The others likely to stay, but the hospital regulations restraint them to. there could only be one person to stay with the patient. Something bothered his mind and might did on her. matt hasn’t come. He tried to call him several times but his cell phone was inactivated and no one pick up the phone on his flat, but he had left a message. But still, no sign he would come until midnight they waited. “Charlie!!!”, she suddenly screamed, clutching his hand tight fully. He quickly brought his face up to see her body shivering in an awful pain. “It hurts!!! It hurts so badly, please stop it……stop it!!! Charlie, help me, it’s hurting me!!! STOP!!!”. With that last screaming she fell unconscious. He quickly got up and ran for the door and called all around for the doctor. ~~~
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 3:03:37 GMT -5
July 18th, 2006 Her body laid so helpless on the bed beside him. He looked so tired, more than he could realise that he was. The sunlight back slowly creeping through the curtain gap as the sun started to rise. He leant his chin on her stomach as he looked over to the window with his eyes narrowing to charlotte’s snowdrops flowers. He asked james to take the snowdrops from his flat to the hospital as he knew that she loved it. He deeply sighed, closing his eyes for a small second and back stared at the plant. It was just an ordinary little white flowers, but somehow it made him so peaceful by just looking at it. It’s so much relaxing for his weary body and soul. Snowdrops are only crooned on winter except it treated in a special treatment. But that morning, amazingly, the flowers crooned so perfectly, showing it pure innocent bright white. The first time they bought it, the flowers hasn’t crooned this beautifully. Something special in it, taking all the sadness away. It was hard to believe that they bought it three days a go when she still looked incredibly healthy. But now she was there, suffering in an awful pain that she shouldn’t of had. He lightly shook her hand, tried to slowly stirring her. “Charlotte, wake up baby.” She weakly blew the air out of her mouth and opened her eyes, catching his smile. “Look, the flowers crooned.” He said, pointed to the snowdrops. She tried to turned her head to see the flower on her right upside, but she couldn’t. he got up and lowered down to her, carefully slid his hands on her back and slowly helped her to sit up. he gently turned her a bit round to the right and once again pointed to the plant as his head leant on hers. “See?” “Charlie…….it’s beautiful.” She said, could hardly spell the words. “It is.” he replied, kissing her head lovingly. He heard her sighed. “What’s wrong?”, he asked concernedly. She shook her head and smiled. “Charlie…….”, she said in a low whisper. “Hmm?” “Do you know that…”, she trailed off to breathe. “….that there’s a beach near here?”. He nodded. “It’s been…….it’s been a long time we haven’t visit any beach yet, so ca……..can we go for a walk there?”, she asked. “But charlotte you’re not strong enough to go out yet. Just wait for a couple of days then I’ll get you there ok?” “No……I wanna go now…….” “But baby…..” “Please…….”. he sighed, speeding out his brain to think whether he should grant what she asked or not. Charlotte raised her hand and faintly ran it on his cheek. “Please, I really want to go to the beach just once more in my life. please, Charlie…..”, she said weakly pleaded. He closed his eyes for a while and grabbed her hand. “Let’s get going.” He said, smiling to her. she smiled back and nodded. ~~~
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Post by chaslee7 on Feb 3, 2005 3:07:58 GMT -5
They arrived at the beach near the hospital after almost a half hour they begged to the doctor so charlotte can go out. It was worth it cuz he finally let them went out the hospital although for just several minutes. She sat on a wheel chair with Charlie pushed it along the shore. The wind whipped around them, lifting her long hair all around her face. The small tide that gently flowing through the wheel and his feet take all the bad thoughts along. He lowered down, kissing her on her top head. he’s way too love her to believe that it was truly happening. He turned aside straight to the wide open sea, hoping that it wasn’t real. “Charlie….”, she calmly called him. “Yea?”, he replied, slightly lowered down to her. “You remember the last time we gone out to the beach?” “Erm…..i don’t know it was a long time a go. We often to go to the beach when we’re around 7 ages, but we stopped to go to beaches when you’re about 10 didn’t we?” she nodded. “I miss those moments. I wished I could turn back the time and being a 10 again. when we’re still together in our family. When we’re still so young and so much free to do just anything we would like to do……” “Yeah, I miss them too. How can I forget the moments we gone through together. I loved you so much and I still do. I know I was always of being such a protective brother for you, but it was just because I didn’t want you to get hurt by anything around you that you didn’t know that it would.” “Uhumm…. But you know, I never got annoyed by your protective care, that was funny. I think I love of being protected by you, I was so used to it. And it became such a big problem when I left the house, cuz I can hardly get your protective care anymore.” “But you get it now, you have my whole attention and protective care so at least I think it’ll relieve your burden. You have me now.” he said, as he once again kissed her head lovingly. “I know.” she smiled, closing her eyes enjoying the sounds of the surf and flying seagulls. She clutched her head as it slightly dropped aside, indicating him something happened. “Charlotte!”, he said in concern, quickly ran to her front and bent down, stared up to her. She took a deep breath and slowly opened her eyes back with a faint smile across her face. “I’m ok.” She said. He bit his bottom lip and rested his head on her lap as his hand held hers tight fully. He could never stop to worried. “Hey, Charlie.” She called out. he brought his face up and mumbled. “Hmm?” “You remember where and when the last time we gone out?”, she said as she looked up, staring at the clear bright sky. He looked forward and thought for a while. “Yeah, it was two weeks before you left the house. We gone to a hill near the house.” “Hmm…… Mom and dad told us not to go, but we didn’t care, we sneaked out from the house when they didn’t aware. It was grabbing out of my adrenaline to did that, but it was so fun though. Even the best I’ve ever experienced.” “Yeah, but you were too lame on hiking even though it was just a small hill. You got exhausted too soon.” He laughed. She faintly laughed as well, still for a small second closed her eyes a couple of times. “I know. You can say that but you just couldn’t let me sat powerless on this big rock waiting for my energy to raise up again. you remember what you did?” He nodded, swung his sight back to the sea. “I couldn’t wait for you to raise up your energy, it’d take a long time to. so I put you on my back and carried on the trip to the top where we saw the most beautiful sun set we’d ever seen.” She smiled, stared at his eyes as he did so. “Wanna do it again?” “What?”, he asked, didn’t get so understand about what she said. “Can you carry me on your back then we’ll carry on to walk along the shore? You didn’t know but the best feel that I had was when you carried me on your back to the top hill. I really could feel your love existence for me when you did that. So please, if you don’t mind I wanna do it just once more again.” she said as a strange sparkle shone in her eyes, pushed some other feel in his head. He felt something strange in the way she pleaded him. She looked so innocent, it felt like everything shifted and they became ten years younger. Then he nodded. He slowly got up and helped her to stand up from the wheel chair. He bent down carefully grabbed her legs as she slowly dropped her self down his back. He lifted her legs up, wrapping his waist and stood up as she wound her arms round his neck. She leant on his shoulder, closing her eyes. He started to stepped forwards, walking along the shore. It was so early in the morning so no one was around. He stopped, reminded that he needs to take off his shoes, so he did. He kicked the shoes over to the wheel chair and stepped ahead again. Her low breath heard by him as he could feel it slightly blew over on his cheek. He looked down to her arms and sighed. It was only her arms, but it could just get him so drowned into grief because how pale and cold her skin was. He kept walking as he felt the soft watery sand tickling through his fingers. It wasn’t real, it wasn’t real…….that was all he said in his heart, convincing him self that it wasn’t real. The wind blew around them, making her hair flied around her face and his, as some strains brought along with the wind. “Charlie, do you know that I love you?” He blew a deep breath as his eyes closed for a small second. “Yes, I know baby.” He replied. “I still cant believe how come our relationship turned out to this, can you Charlie?” “All that I believe is I love you no matter why and no matter how. I feel this right, and I wont ask why cuz I’m glad that have this feeling for you, not anyone else.” “What do you mean…” “You were my sister, and I gave you all my love and caress of being a brother for you. no one in this world have had my love as much as you have. And now everything’s changed. You’re no longer of my sister but you still have my love as much as you had before. then that love turned out to the other kind of love. I feel so grateful that this is happening between us, cuz I know I cant turn my love from you to anyone else.” He couldn’t see her behind but he could feel that she was smiling as they kept walking along. “My eyes are heavy.” She said. “You wanna go back to the hospital?” She shook her head. “No……carry on…..i’m fine.” She said under her breath. “Uhumm.” He mumbled. “Charlie…..” “Yea.” She took a deep sigh once again. “I love you.” He swallowed, something rushed into his head so heavily. It sounded so different. He closed his eyes as he felt something really strange. “I love you too.” “Charlie……would you please tell me what you did when you were in New York?…was it fun?”, she asked, as a cold breath blew over his skin. “yeah….yeah, sure.” “…..ok.” “Well…..what should I start it with? Erm, you know that I just need one more term to be graduated from high school, but strangely I had to attend two more terms in New York. You know, different country, different education programs. But I like it anyway. All the people there were so nice, and I’ve learnt so much of new things like………charlotte, you’re listening?”
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